sitting and staring at the blank
do not come home late for you have just lost your wife do not lose your daughters and sons
extend you arm to the ones u want love, do not push in the name of love
do not think too far, do not think of not thinking too far

wishing for a pill, would be nice to make me forget
for going away so long, tearing alone sometimes cannot be fun
having no money, feeling rich as ever with friends, who needs money
do no belittle money for it will belittle you

promise once.
promise once.


have fun..but the work..remember to get it done.
a new house you have. may it be your sweet humble abode.
so tell me, if i dun do anything and just sit and sigh
will anyone come?
if anyone should come, should i feel good about myself
isnt that being narrowminded
if so then why do the mind keep thinking of attention
keep thinkin of companion
keep thinkin of the perished home..


we dun feel home anymore.
i dun want to close the eyes and try to think of home.
cause when i open them, it's still just the box.


it's okay if u dun feel right.
i'd rather make u feel alright and remain here in my plight.

i do not say the things i mean
im bad at doing what i preach
i preach what other should do


i do respect you
but tell me, do you really think i do?


ok so the world will keep spinning
but dun u think i need someone to scold me
i dun think i will let just anyone scold me
scolding is good for the heart.


if u didnt scold me, i wouldnt have grown to understand fear.
fear is nothing without you.
but now without you, i fear you're still watching.
because of your scolding, i still fear, fear.

now that they want us.
there's something that is of certain value what we are doing
wasting money and time to trash the crash
wasting time and money to burn friendship and sticks
creating buzz from fruit shop
creating money from writing in notebooks

fitting in angry lines and and fake agendas
lookin cool and feeling high
just seem to cut it for this messed up spirit

you dun even know what youre writing
it's just a space
a space where ppl come and see
and think, and deduce and evaluate
they will then have things to say





what if i dunno what i feel yet.
think emotionally.
what if i dunno what i want yet.
think realistically.
what if there's no reason to do things anymore.



but that's not right is it?
without the wrong, it's sometimes hard to see the right.
why did you even bother being right.
but isnt being wrong something right too.







needs are,
spa.
time.
decide on something.
real people like irving
more sun and sand and sea
take me to the other side.
no more secrets.
give all the shows you can give.



i think of you everytime mom.